Life Update | Graduation, Moving, College, Depression, Anxiety
I haven't written a post in so long this feels foreign. Especially since I've always been crap at writing. How ironic, right? Anywho, where to start... It's been since last November that I posted anything. Since then A LOT has happened obviously. January 23 2015 was my last day of high school. After that I didn't really do much. I got a job at Walmart in April working in the back but it turned out to be too much for me so I had to quit. May 31st I had my graduation ceremony. (WooHoo!)
Then I didn't really have anything going on in my life. I don't remember when but late spring/early summer my family put our house up for sale. Two months later it SOLD! (That's fast in realty around here) So then my full time job was looking for a house. My mom is a teacher but she works a bit enrolling children over the summer for the fall to make some extra money and my dad is retired and doesn't know how to use a computer so I was really the only one helping to look. I have two older sisters but they didn't really care to help and just let me be the one to help our mom. We debated moving to bigger city or even all the way down to Tennessee because there just wasn't anything around here. Then my mom's coworker told her that her daughters neighbor, who lives in a small town about 10 miles south of us, just moved into assisted living and that his children were going to be selling the house. We looked at it but the basement wasn't finished and that was something we really wanted. While we were down there looking at it we saw two houses nearby for sale by owner. My mom called them both and set up times to look at them the first one was really nice and had the upstairs laundry my mom needs and also the finished basement but it was just too big of a house for us. The second one was it. It had the upstairs laundry, finished basement, nice two car garage (our previous home was only one car), lots of storage area and enough room for us all. We moved in August 14 and so far I'm liking it.
Then there's college... Since we moved just over the state bored into Illinois, I decided to go to a nearby community college and just take a few basic online classes this semester. I was going to do cosmetology but now I'm thinking of doing business. I want to do a bunch of different stuff but I'm too indecisive. I know I want to do something with makeup [keep reading for more on that ;)] but I also want something more "practical." I want to do Interior Design or American Sign Language to English Interpretation (ASLEI) but I need to take some ASL classes as prerequisites. Other times I even want to do Marine Biology because of my love for sharks and other marine life or something in the medical field. I'll most likely do one of the first two though. What sucks is since we just moved I have to pay out of state tuition which is $80 more per credit. I had to take money out of my savings to pay for my books and I still have some money owed for tuition and fees. To try and help pay for it all and help support my family I'm currently looking for a job. I had a lady from a Pizza Hut call and leave me a message to come in a get a background check to further the interview processes. I've also applied to a few stores and pretty much any place that I can. I'm really hoping that I get something soon. I need something to do to get out of the house and help support my family. Plus I'm trying to raise money to start my own makeup brand!
More about my makeup brand... I've recently really been dreaming about starting my own makeup brand and I'm trying to make it a reality and I need YOUR help! Like I said, I'm trying to save enough money to start up my own brand. I'm going to start off with lip products. I want to perfect a formula and product and then go from there. I'm not sure if I want to do lipsticks, or liquid lipsticks. Which do you like better?? Also, I'm not sure of what I wan't to call it. I REALLY want to call it Carousel Cosmetics but then I found a brand already named that :( I have a few other ideas but want to hear what you all think is a cool name for a makeup brand. I'm still trying to figure it all out but that's just part of it all. If you have any ideas or suggestions for me PLEASE feel free to leave it in the comments!
I've been really depressed and struggling with my anxiety. Just writing all of this out has been therapeutic for me. I really want to start doing more blog posts. I just don't know what about! Plus, due to my depression and anxiety I haven't been filming or uploading on my YouTube which really sucks because It's something I loved. I just recently lost my drive to do it. I filmed like three weeks ago and have edited a bit of the first half of a video but I just haven't been in the mood. Plus like a month ago I decided to do a DIY and refinish my night stand. My mom bugged me about it the other day and I exploded about it. I have anger issues and was on my period and I bottle everything up so that was the last straw. I couldn't deal. I hate to admit it but it's true and there is a LONG back story as to why I have these issues but that's for another post... Hopefully if I get a job that will help. I think a lot of it has to do with being at home too much and not going out and interacting with other humans. I don't know, I'm just crazy I guess.
If you've made it this far thank you and congrats! That's a lot of ranting/complaining to go through haha. Please let me know what you think about the things I mentioned! Your input is appreciated.
XOXO,
Wren
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