Wrens World

As you can tell from my previous blog posts, my writing isn't really the best when it comes to grammar and things like that. I've always struggled with reading and writing. When I was in preschool I had to take speech lessons because I couldn't say R's and something else I can't think of. I would say wabbit instead of rabbit or twee instead of tree. I was 4 so it's not like I was just learning to talk. Then in grade school, from 2nd to 5th grade, I had to go for special reading lessons. There were a few other kids so I wasn't alone but it was because we weren't at the proper reading level for our age. Middle school wasn't too bad for me, 6th grade I was in the lower level but 7th and 8th I was in the "normal" or "average" level classes. All through high school I was in the "average" level as well but I wasn't good. I always hated writing because I just didn't understand things and had to always ask my sister Holly for help. Honestly, she wrote almost all of my essays/papers. She was always in honors english so she was good and helped me. That's probably the only reason I wasn't in the lower level. No matter how much she tried to explain things or help it was just easier for her to just do it and dumb it down a bit so it seems like something I could have written. Then at spring semester in my junior year of high school I went to doing full time online classes (I'll make a post about that some other time) and took basic, easy English classes to get the required credits like Reading Around the World, Mystery Fiction, and Mythology. All I had to do was read and then take quizzes and test on what I read. Now that I'm in college and have to take classes where I have to write essays it sucks. As part of my cosmetology cert. I have to take credits in math, english, and a few elective credits as well. I know I shouldn't have cheated my way through but writing is just not my strong suit. Ironic since I write blog posts, right? But writing on here I'm not worried about getting a good/passing grade or writing about something I don't understand or care about. Here I get to write about what I like and care about. I can say whatever I want and if my grammar isn't correct or perfect it doesn't matter. It's just me writing my thoughts and feelings and sharing it with the world. Back in high school I even asked about being moved to the lower level since I wasn't doing well (I was getting a D) and they said "We don't like to move people down a level but we can find a tutor for you." I was just like really!? I'm failing and need to go slower and have extra help in class, having a tutor just makes me feel stupid and belittled. Plus my sister had her honor classes which are faster and harder and I really just didn't like to have to ask for her after so many years so I just did it myself and got bad grades. Maybe it's just my school but I think they need to listen to the students more. If someone like me is clearly not doing well and asks to be moved to a lower level where they can get more help, take things slower, and get better grades it's a no brainer. I'm sure if I would have insisted they would have moved me at semester but I'm a shy person and didn't want start anything so I just dealt with it until I could switch to full time online. I may not have the best writing but I'm not writing to impress anyone. I'm writing for me, to express myself. So if you've ever read my post and thought that some 16 year old wrote it this is why, I'm not good at writing and probably never will be but I will continue to write blog posts because it's something I like to do.

xoxo,

Wren