Wrens World

9 November 2015 was not only my19th birthday but also the first day of my new job! It's almost been an entire month already and I'm still not sure how I feel about it. It's working at a call center, I answer the phone and take peoples orders or payments from various catalogs the company owns. Most people are very nice and I've only had a few rude people. The only bad thing is that they don't schedule you for a lunch, you have to request one which takes 2-3 weeks to go in effects since they schedule 2 weeks in advance. I just get two 10 minute breaks even though I'm working 8 hour shifts, which is illegal but it pays quite well so there isn't too much to complain about. The only thing I don't like is the sitting. You basically sit for 8 hours strait. The chairs are comfortable but after a while I get a bit restless and just uncomfortable so I'm always stretching and moving around in my seat. I'm sure I drive my neighbors crazy lol It is a temporary job and they usually have a layoff but sometimes you can stay and just have less hours but I'm not sure if I want to stay or not. I like it and it's really quite easy, I just don't like dealing with people. There are a lot of calls where you can barely hear anything or it's super staticky or something and it just makes me feel incompetent having to ask them something 5 times in a row. Plus my anxiety can be bad which makes it hard but since it's not face to face that does help. When the times come for layoffs I'll make my decision then.

When I first got my learners permit a few years ago I signed up to be an organ donor. I didn't really choose to, everyone said you should so I just did it. Then when I got my license the same thing just kind of happened. I knew the importance and how thousands of people die waiting for a transplant each year so I just went with it. Now that I have to go in and renew my license I've been thinking about organ donation. You may not know this but I struggle with anxiety and depression. For some reason the thought of having another persons organ, tissue, or blood freaks me out. It makes my skin crawl and I honestly don't think I could do it, even if it was life or death. It sounds crazy to say it, let alone think it, but I'd rather die than get another persons body parts. I would honestly feel weird and constantly freaking out about it. It'd be like having a never ending panic attack. No matter how many facts you tell me I just can't do it. I know getting is different than giving but to me it's still freaky. Yeah, I'd be dead and wouldn't know any better but it's still weird for me to think of another person having part of me in them. If you've ever struggled with anxiety you might be able to understand and I hope that you will be able to even if you don't or haven't. My opinions are forever changing so maybe one day I'll be able to be a donor, but as of right now I just can't do it. Are you a donor? Let me know down below.


xoxo,
Wren

So in my life update a while back I talked about starting my own makeup brand. It's something I really want to do but I've decided to put it off for a while. It might be a few months or a few years or maybe never. Right now I'm just THINKING about it. I'm focusing more on college right now. I haven't boughten anything to start making products, I'm just pondering the idea of having my own brand and what I'd start with. Plus a friend of mine wants me to join Mary Kay, which might be a good idea. I mean I'd have to sell products for a different brand but it would help with my business skills and I could see what people do and don't like in certain products. Yes, it wouldn't be MY products but it would give me an idea of what qualities people like and want in their makeup. But I'm not sure if Mary Kay is a brand I want to be a part of. Their products are decent but that's it. They're priced like a high end brand you would buy at Sephora but the quality and formulas of a lot of their products is not good. I could get a lot more, and a lot better, products at the drugstore rather than them for the most part (I haven't tried everything from them, I'm just going off of what I have tried). Well that turned into a mini rant. They're stuff is good but I just think it's overpriced, especially since I've tried so many different high end brands. If I'm going to pay $8 for a 0.05 oz eyeshadow I expect it to be good quality(a MAC eyeshadow is $10 for 0.04 oz for reference). But I'm sure if I try more I'll find more things that I love. I honestly haven't tried that much, just a handful of eyeshadows, some lipsticks, and different kinds of foundations/bb creams. Now back to what this post is really about, me starting my own brand someday. Mary Kay would give me good business and people skills but I don't know how that would look later. You start with your own Mary Kay business but then stop that and start your own indie brand? I feel like people might try to accuse me of stealing their products, ideas, formula, etc. Maybe I'm just being paranoid. It would help me gain experience but would it hurt me in the long run? I'm going to say this now, if I ever start my own brand it will be mine. I'll create my own products and formulas. I'll spend months, maybe even years, creating my own perfect range of cosmetics. If I'm going to put in the time and effort AND put my name and face to a brand then it will be completely me. Sure if I grow I'll hire people to help me but I'll always be the one in charge, making the decisions. Talking about this is getting me excited. No, not for the power, but for having my own brand where I get to make my own makeup! I don't really know if owning my own makeup brand will ever happen. I love so many other brands so I wouldn't only use what I make. Creating my own makeup brand and products is just something I dream of, but not all dreams come true or can be a reality. I dreamt of being a singer when I was younger but then I realized my voice isn't as good as I thought so it just won't happen. But if you guys think I should try to pursue this, even if it takes me 20 years, let me know. I'd also love to know what specifically you like most in your makeup i.e. longevity of wear, pigmentation, feel, scent, etc. (tell me something like "I like my lipsticks matte but not drying, to last at least 10 hours, be smudge-proof, and smell like cupcakes" or "I love highly pigmented eyeshadow with little fall out that doesn't smell like anything" and so on) I know I rambled on and was all over the place but I'm just typing what I'm thinking. Hopefully you've been able to understand what I'm talking about and not get too lost or confused. Thank you so much for all your love, support, and ideas.


xoxo,
Wren